Our mother is in the hospital with an infection and I’m worrying about EVERYTHING! Anyway, sis and I were texting (she’s out of town at a conference) and I said I was in ‘high level worry mode lately and was in an extremely bad physical state’ and was trying to calm down. I had a rough weekend physically and spent most of the time in the recliner.
So she speaks (texts) the words of the wise ancient, certainly more than her 41 years..she has matured through the over 8 yr process of Recovery and she amazes me every day. So she said: ‘Worry and stress makes your pain worse. Give her to God cuz He already has her.’ Huh. I don’t know how she does that. She just speaks the truth, just like that. Even when you don’t want to hear it. When my mind is going a million miles an hour and just in circles, getting no where, worrying about infection and fever of unknown origin, white cell counts and chemo, bone marrow testing, ugh sepsis, I know too much working in the medical field, wedding in a MONTH! My sister is getting married in a month. Mom has to get better and make it to the wedding. It’s a small wedding, but family is flying in, including mom. I will channel my sister’s calm vibe and pray to put it all in God’s hands. Worrying does no good except makes me feel worse. She’s so right. I used to be the one who was always right. I held everyone together. I’m so proud of my sister and how far she’s come to be who she is now. And she’s so right.